origins

 ...the atmospheric pressures knocked out my connection to Homeworld signal. Inside my heart portal, the line went dead. I could no longer hear the universal music. The body's heartbeat pounded in my ears--too real--the inner vortex inaccessible. I could feel that part of me was missing, but I didn't understand what was happening.  

Some degree of amnesiac arrest on arrival to Earth was anticipated. This is why we spend so long on recollection protocols. But my training as Memory Keeper and Code Carrier could not have prepared me for the anguish of "the fall" -- losing multidimensional memory of who I am and where I am from. 

Of course, this is what every human experiences on waking to human form. I now see the experience as necessary to understand the pain I came to help heal with my sound codes. 

Through the deafening internal static of my amnesiac arrest, I strained to hear the universal melody which I knew in my most trusted center had once existed and guided me. 

Memories of Homeworld began to feel like a dream. Earth was so gritty, so undeniably real. 

Homeworld and the being I was there (am still, outside of time/the duality experiment) began to feel like an impossible fantasy. 

But still, something drove me forward, each day to keep reaching for that lost vital connection. My training drove me unconsciously. 

I became a seeker, searching for reunion with a nameless feeling. 

Although I came to Earth as a Memory Keeper, I lost my memory to the amnesiac atmosphere like everyone else. My offworld training drove me on, a keeper turned seeker.  Sometimes I heard small snatches of melody on the breeze, universal music in my inner ear, and it gave me the fortitude to persist--heart as compass.  

I began to make those small moments of connection into songs to help me remember. Later, I used these drafts to create my sound codes.

What finally brought me back into full contact with Homeworld signal was the vibration of my own voice. 

We carry recollection protocols within our cells. My activation points are sound-based. I sang myself home--to the non-local home within, which transcends space and time.  

 Once I re-established connection to HOMEWORLD through the continuum, it all came back to me.

I remembered how to exist in the eternity of presence--bringing Homeworld to Earth through the inner vortex of the heart, utilizing the vibration of sound. 

In my reconnected state, I scribed the songs dictated by essence in harmony with universal music. Songs designed as conduits to homeworld frequencies.